Today is going to be a beautiful day!
Picture taken on my phone, watching the sunrise over Torquay, Devon, England x
Change the way you see things
And the things you see will change
This picture is of one of the shells I collected on one of my many beach walks…
Do you see angel wings? X
Panoramic view of Dartmoor, Devon, England x
My past is nothing more than the trail I have left behind… What drives my life today is the energy I generate in each of my present moments 🦋
(Picture taken yesterday at Ness beach Shaldon Devon)
What small steps are you going to do today towards your future goals?
Small steps everyday!
Love to you all x
Talking to my inner peace, my space to take it all in, into my conscious mind
My physical body resting, peaceful in this place
My senses taking in the sounds around
The birds singing
The silence that isn’t silence
Humming in my ears
Whooshing of my heart
Softness of my breath
Clock ticking the fake time away
The now of just being here in this space
Taking notice of the way my physical body feels
The tightness across my lower back
Pressure on my tummy
The ache of my eye
Throbbing of feet
This all in my physical being that in this time I inhabit
Which is an instrument I can use how I will
Thoughts pinging here to there
I can be lead, let it me be guided for the better, learning, feeling
Being guided by an energy, a force that already knows
It is here to guide me
I am here to listen
For it is right
It knows what this ‘being’ is here to do
I just let it be and it will come to my physical thought
It is right
It is all right
The energy has lead me to this point of now
I am guided
I am that
I am now
Set it as a reminder on your phone!
Write it in your mirror!
Put it in your fridge!
You are enough
Love to you all x
Took the hairy boy for a walk on the beach yesterday. Just beautiful!!
I’m very lucky that I live in a very lovely part of my country, Devon. This is Ness beach, which is in Shaldon near Teignmouth. The pictures where taken on the beach and then I walked along the coastal path, and looked down on the beach.
I love going to the beach just to clear my head. I often go in-between night shifts because I struggle the most, physically and mentally when I’m on night shifts. To be blunt it just fucks my body up!! But I’ve become aware of that now, I began to recognise the pattern so I put plans in place to support me during those times. I think that’s the key really when you having a low time…
- Recognising your patterns of moods…. When do they happen? What’s triggered it? Maybe keep a mood diary for a couple mouths so you can build up a picture.
- Plan for those times. Do nice things that make you happy such as listen to music, take a walk, hot bath, watch your favourite programme. Be kind to yourself
- Except that it is going to happen, and that’s ok. You are prepared, it’s normal, and it won’t last.
As soon as I excepted the fact that when I do a run of night shifts I’m going to feel tired, I’m going to feel low, I’m probably going to cry, I just felt better and did not stress myself out worrying why I was feeling like this.
Hope this helps.
Love to you all x
Like an oil painting isn’t it.
As the sun sets the colours change.
I feel there’s a book title in there somewhere!!
It’s amazing isn’t it that when you look at a picture what pops up in your head.
My beautiful dearest friend sent me these pictures of her walk the other evening.
Love to you x
I feel we all need a bit of warmth, sunshine, glow and radiance on this cold, wet, windy January morning!
Love to you all x
At this moment, whilst I’m sat at work, watching the seconds to the end of my short break, and before I face another persons personal drama, as I hear the rain splashing on the toad outside, and the rattles from the building as the wind picks up again…
Sun… yes the warm, comforting, glow of the sun…. yes that will do right now!
Love to you all x
Wow 2017 what a year you have been. I started the year buying a page a day diary and wrote on page one in big letters….
This year is about self-help
- Heal myself
- No more hurt
- Say no when I want to
As a child at school I was always a secret daily writer, and considering I was named as one of the thickos, in special classes, later labeled as dyslexic ,I kept a Dear Diary everyday and I still have those now… I’ve read them through, they are no Adrian Mole but a reminder of those times. I did not write about my feelings in those times because of the fear of someone reading it but what it did unknowingly teach me was about daily habits.
Daily habits have been my saving grace this year. I am a great believer in small daily habits. It’s trendy and traditional at this time of year to be setting your New Year resolutions, which really are another word for setting goals. But how many of us keep them up? And why is that? Many reasons I suppose, time, motivation, self discipline, goal feels too big because there’s no plan in place, fear, self talk, the kids need picking up, the tea needs cooking, where is your PE kit?, oh shit the dog just peed on the carpet, Aunt Bessie is ill, my nails need cutting, new series of Game of Thrones is about to start, why did you not tell me you needed to be dressed as a book character today, as we are walking out the door!!!! The list is endless.
Back to my words I wrote at the beginning of the year,
- How was I going heal myself?
- How am I going to have no more hurt?
- How am I going to find the balls to stand up and say no when I want to?
This is what I have been asking myself in 2017, because to be honest with you they are massive asks aren’t they, ones that because of forty six years of learnt behaviours, negative ways of thinking, environments and people that have shaped me, all this I am going to have to change to reach the holy grail of happiness!
How am I, in the words of Russell Brand am I going to ‘unfuck’ myself?’
What are the things that have helped towards my written words I wrote?…. You notice I don’t like to use the words ‘goal’, ‘resolutions’ because I feel that puts me under to much pressure to achieve, and then I feel a failure or a loser or weak if I don’t achieve. These are just words, thoughts, no pressure, so what if I miss a day it does not matter, I can start again tomorrow, new day, new beginning, no failures just small steps, and as long as those steps are taken it is a step forward.
So here are the words I wrote a couple of days in my diary…
I am hoping over 2018, and what I have written down in my new diary is, I want to help people like me that want to unfuck themselves, maybe share with people that want to read it how I am doing it, instead of keeping my writings to myself, share some of it.
Questions to ponder…
- How have you done this year?
- How do you feel today?
- What words would you write for next year?
Love to you all x
Thats a grumpy face!
This is the face of my Granddaughter when she has just been woken up!
Doing the job I am doing at the moment definitely puts everything into prospective.
We are here on this earth for a brief moment, one minute we are here the next we are gone, how ever you think of it, what your beliefs are, take this small window of life, grab it, squeeze the hell out of it, sometimes the journey is a struggle, thats ok because it doesn’t last forever.
You don’t take your ‘things’ with you, you don’t take your money, that is all insignificant in the end.
You do leave behind the way you have made people feel, the way you have treated people, the kindness you shown, the care you have taken, the words that you have said, the laughter you have started, the tears you have shed, the memories you have created.
What are YOU leaving behind on this Earth? x
Choosing a landscape photo is easy as I seem to have millions of them because I live in such a beautiful part of the world, having countryside, moorlands and coast to choose from!
This is the panoramic view over the town I live near! X
I’m a happy boy because I passed my Kennel Club Gold Award x
There’s rhythm and motion all around us…
My boy on the beach a couple of days ago, see the joy in his face! x
This is ‘Daisy the cow’ we brought her at the weekend with some magic beans! x
One Love, friendship
Looking back at my past blog posts I have used this picture three times. I love this picture because to me this represents the bond two friends have.
I took this picture a few years ago on a school trip to the local park. These boys where the classes little loveable rebels. I knew them from the day they started in nursery to the day they left in year six. They had been friends from that time in nursery and it had lasted all the way. They had their ups and downs, fall outs, but they always had that bond.
I’m so glad I caught this moment they had together that day, it just looked so peaceful, an unspoken conversation, closeness, understanding. x
Harmony…Tricky, can mean a million things to millions of people. To me it is how things complement each other, how things belong together to make one whole, the whole picture of how sky, sea and earth together together make our world, and each picture we take of the sky, sea and earth will look completely different but are only made up of those three elements.
This picture was taken one summers evening, whilst I was sitting on a wall eating fish and chips, at Teignmouth, Devon, England. x
The journey of being mum has at times been a roller coaster ride. It was a job that I never thought I would undertake because I was never the mumsy type. Don’t get me wrong I always liked children, other people’s, you can hand them back you see. I was never a mum that carried tissues in their bag to wipe sticky fingers, I was rubbish at remembering things like PE kits, dentist appointments, my best trick was turning up to appointments on the wrong day, remembering to pick them up after clubs. I was one of those mums as a teacher we hated, sending them in without a coat, not naming their clothes, not turning up for parents evening because I had lost the slip. To be fair I was expecting them both to be in therapy by the time they were teenagers because of the crap mother they had but apparently they seemed to have turned out alright, they say they love me.
They say they liked the fact I was relaxed not pushy, fun, I didn’t mollycoddle. I have taught them independents, they grew up able to cook, clean, look after themselves, help other people with no fussing or nagging on my part. I just let them get on with things and learn by their own mistakes, which believe you me they have made some.
At times I didn’t want to be a mum anymore, it’s the hardest job going, it’s a role that I wanted to be better at, I wanted to be an earth mother, Mother Teresa, Mary Poppins, but I am not, I’m just me, doing the best job in the best way that I can! X
Interpret this how you wish….
Spiralling out of control?…
Light at the end of the tunnel?…
I don’t know, you tell me x
I thought I would post a picture for each season,
As you see above Winter, this picture was taken on my old iPhone when in the rare occasion we actually got snow here, the last time being 2010. We went on a snow walk to the woods, very atmospheric!
Following the cold dark Winters is Spring, this picture represents Spring well here for me, because I live in the countryside the farmers plant the maze and then cover it with plastic which leaves an effect around us like we are surrounded in sparkly water.
Then of cause my favourite time Summer, this is me doing exactly what I want to be doing all the time, say no more you get the picture!
Then Autumn, or how some of you call it Fall, I love the colours at this time of year. The seasons just keep going round and round regardless, moving and changing. One thing you can be assured of. x
This is a tad abstract but in this piece of art I see the face of my handsome dog!
Can you see it? x
I have had a week off on annual leave, (well except Wednesday I went in as a favour!) And I have been doing lots of dog walks in the wind and rain.
The first picture I went for the Arabian nights look trudging through the desert, except it was so cold on my delicate little face I needed to cover it. The second look is the Men in Black look, dressed in a alien rubber protection from acid slime suit.
This one, I am sure needs no introduction!
Our British Icon! Big Ben! x
My Second entry to this weeks challenge, the beauty of nature. I am sure I have many more pictures if I delve deep enough into the photo archives, but here are a tiny few that I could grab quickly. Again I don’t think I can take credit for taking these pictures, my OH is the clever one with the lens, I just benefit from them as material for this blog. x
Weekly Photo Challenge
In my 30 min break of my 12 hour shift I am dreaming of some vibrant sunshine at the beach…. Are you coming? X
Few things in the world are more powerful than a positive push, a smile, a world of optimism and hope, a ‘you can do it’ when things are tough.
My smiling bear picture was taken on one of my visits to Dartmoor zoo in Devon, England.
I am optimistic that one day soon I shall be again be supping a cold lager, looking over the sea, on a warm summers evening! x
Again these pictures were taken on the same school trip, it was to enhance their creative writing, it is called the Ted Hughes trail. He is a local famous poet.
This picture was taken on a school trip a few years ago now! x